You are there. I am here. We are where we are supposed to be.

 

Haven’t you realized we are where we are supposed to be? We are where we are because we are supposed to be here and not anywhere else..

Most people sometimes wish they are somewhere else other than the place or situation they’re in, sometimes also wish they’re with someone else other than the one they’re already with.. I am one of those people. I have always wished I am somewhere else, sometimes even wish I were somebody else. But as I think about it now, maybe it’s true that where I am, who I am with, is where God wants me to be, and the company I keep is the people He really wants me to be with.

“There are no accidents” says master oogway to shifu in the movie Kung Fu Panda.

Things happen because it is supposed to happen –neither by bad nor good luck. Good things happen because we are supposed to enjoy it; bad things happen because we are supposed to experience and learn from it. Favorable things come to us not because we are nature’s favorable one, nor unfavorable things happen because we are not special.

Regrets. Some time in life, we regret the past, not realizing that it’s because of the past that we are able to enjoy everything we are enjoying in the present. Regretful events happen, because it is supposed to enter our life once in a while.. to teach us to be thankful.

Take for example this: Some people think they’re not as good-looking as the other people they know. Is this because they are supposed to be less of what others are? NO. They may think that way, but I believe that odd things are there because other people are supposed to see the beauty in them.

All things happen because it is supposed to make us learn one thing: that whatever situation we’re in, it’s where God plans and wants us to be, and we just have to recognize it is His Will.

 

wishpom: a birthday wish poem ^^

wishpom

i wish to see you tomorrow
hear your voice when you greet me
i wish to receive a hug from you
or give me a gentle pat on my head tomorrow by EOD

but wishes can not be granted
unless we do something about it
i just wish you’ll remember
i just wish you won’t forget..

malansang isda

lumaki ka sa bayan ni Juan
pinakain, binihisan
pinag-aral hanggang sa magkamuang
itinuro lahat ng iyo nang nalalaman

at nang magkamuang, nagkaisip, tumalino (weh di nga?)
iniwan ang bayang nagpalaki syo
natuto lang ng konting ingles
lumaki na agad ang ulo mo..

di ko malaman kung baket may mga tulad mo
nakatapak lang ng ibang bansa, akala mo na kung sino
sa tingin mo ba’y makakapunta ka jan
nang hindi dahil kay at walang tulong ni juan?

sulitin mo na pagpapakasasa
dyan sa bayang pinagmamalaki mo
mataas man ang iyong nang nalipad
wag naman sanang sa bukid ka ulet bumalik pag lumagpak

to whom this may concern.. *wink*

minsan tahimik, minsan magulo
minsan pasaway, minsan matino
minsan masaya, minsan malungkot
minsan walang kibo, minsan maharot

minsan bitter, madalas naman sweet
minsan parang bato, madalas naman makulit
minsan pikon, minsan nakakainis,
minsan namimikon, minsan nakakamiss.

lahat ng minsan, sana dalasan
lahat ng madalas, sana maging palagian
lahat ng yan paghalu-haluin mo
lahat ng mga yan ang gustong gusto ko syo..

something on Tuesday that made me smile on Wednesday..

It was a rainy tuesday the other day. Another day to stay in “Alaska”-temperatured spot/cube in the office, doing nothing else but read read, and read CBTs you can find in the MyLearning site.. After realizing that I have completed almost all my required CBTs, I tried to search for Books24×7, registered for it, clicked on the ‘Recommended’ link, then browse for books that I might find interesting to read.. and so I came upon the book title “The Five Secrets You Must Discover Before You Die” by John Izzo. Hmmm.. found it interesting, clicked the title, then off to read the book..

Somewhere in one of the chapters’ discussion, I learned that:

“..to live life fully, you have to banish the word BOREDOM from your vocabulary”

Thought of it as interesting though It seems hard for me ‘coz I’ve been complaining about it for weeks already.. From the minute after I read that line, it got me thinking and realized that that line is right.. “hmmm.. hmmm..”

Wednesday was just and had been just another day for reading.. Another day that sleepyness won’t leave me..

but surprisingly found me smiling and realized that yes, I’m still complaining to friends..of sleepyness, of hunger an hour after another, and of having nothing else to do but read, but I haven’t complained to them of being bored again!! …..meaning that the last time I told someone “nababato na talaga ako” was just on Monday, and I have subconsciously removed boredom from my vocabulary since tuesday!

yey! ..I also found out that since then, when somebody asks me how I am, I simply would answer them “ayus naman.. basa basa pa rin..”, keeping from telling my now-prohibited words “nakakabato, batong-bato, bored”.. because I’m not bored anymore.. (or at least I try not to feel it, trying not to make it win over me..) ^_^

..and I intend not to use that word anymore..

I’ll try.. I promise..

…madaming promise… 

hanapin mo happyness mo.. ^. (mauna…… una! mahuli…..taya!)

May gusto kang gawin, di mo magawa.. Atat ka nang simulan un gusto mong gawin pero di mo naman magawang simulan.. Marami kang gustong gawin na hindi pa nagagawa ng karamihan, pero dahil takot kang mauna, hindi mo magawa.. so, maghihintay ka na lang na may makaisip na gawin un gusto mong gawin, para magawa mo na sya..

 Pano kung walang makaisip na gumawa ng bagay na gusto mong gawin..? Ayaw mo na? Buburahin mo na sya sa listahan nga mga gusto mong gawin..??

 Karamihan sa atin, ganito. Marami tayong gustong gawin, pero dahil sa takot na baka masita if ever, or mahusgahan, maghihintay na lang tayo ng taong unang susubok, aabangan kung anong magiging epekto (kung mapapagalitan ba sya dahil sa ginawa, o mapupuri, o mahuhusgahan ng either mali o tama), manunuod habang tayo nagdadasal na “sana okay lang.. pag hindi sya nasita, ako din gagawin ko..”

 Pag may magandang nangyari dun sa taong un, agad mong sasabihin na gusto mo nang gawin ang ginawa nya,.. pero,

 Pag may nangyari na di ka-gandahan, sasabihin natin “buti na lang di ko ginawa..” (sabay tawa)

 Baket di natin minsan subukang mauna..?

Ano’t ano man ang mangyari pagkatapos, may matututunan ka naman.. diba..?

 Sabi nga nila, do it the moment you thought of doing whatever it is.. wag mo na hayaang lumipas ang araw, at mawalang parang bula ang lakas ng loob na meron ka nung maisip mo gawin ang isang bagay na gusto mo.. na talagang makapagpapasaya sa’yo ng todong-todo..

 Minsan masaya mauna, una kang kinabahan, tpos nun wala na, kesa un magpapahuli ka pa..

 ..?

just a thought..

after all.. eto latest na realization ko..

“the difference between an emotional and a physical pain is that, sa physical pain bukod sa alam mo kung gano kasaket, alam mo rin where the pain is coming from.. sa emotional pain, you don’t know san ba, basta ang alam mo lang masaket sya, yun at yun lang.. masaket. yun lang.” –jOkel

inexplicably soon to overflow.

“ilabas mo na yan..” -that’s what they’re telling me now..

I know and tell you what, I really want to let it out. I just can’t find time (busy kase ako kaya diko mahanapan ng oras. siyet)..Kung alam niyo lang, sana naging tae na lang ‘toh para madaling ilabas.. kaso hindi..

I need help.. echos.. but I really do.. I need help.. mabigat-bigat din kase ito.. pagtatawanan nyo lang din naman ako..

I am always used to keeping everything in me.. hangga’t kaya ko pang ilunok, i-hinga ng malalim, tumango-tango, umiling-iling, sige lang tapos sabay tawa (parang ngayon lang, in tears pero tatawa ako mag-isa kase parang mukantanga naman ako).. Tama rin nga un sinabi nila na pag mag-isa ka na lang, nun ka na naman ha-hunting-in ng reality..

Sa ngayon ang kaya ko lang gawin eh ilista lahat ng gusto ko gawin para aliwin ang sarili ko.. almost full na kase un “container” ko sa loob eh (papagod din ako)..

• Gusto ko sumigaw ng malakas, kahit ano.
• Gusto ko mag-Videoke nang mag-Videoke.. pipiliin ko un mga kantang may sigaw sa bandang dulo..para magawa ko un unang nakalista..
• Gusto ko maglaro sa Timezone, mag Tom’s World, basta gusto ko maglaro
• Gusto ko tumalon-talon at tumakbo-takbo freely na hindi ko kelangang alalahaning bente-kwatro anyos na ako’t kelangan nang mahiya..
• Gusto sumakay ng Jungle Log Jam, tapos sisigaw ulet ako pag pababa na ng pinaka-matarik na fall..
• Gusto kumain nang kumain, magpakabusog, hanggang sa mag-burp nang bonggang-bongga
• Gusto ko manuod ng cartoon movie – Ice Age 3, etc.. (kahit solo flight pwede na)
• Gusto ko ng pagkaka-abalahan – cross stitch, puzzle, basa ng libro ni Bob Ong, etc
• Gusto ko magsulat literal
• Gusto ko ng hugs.. maraming hugs, malaking hugs
• Gusto ko manggigil
• Gusto ko sumuntok, gusto ko magbasag ng pinggan (alam ko dito sa Pinas meron atang venue na pwede ka magbasag eh..

Above all, gusto ko na sya “ilabas” (if you know what i mean) sa paraang alam ko.. at nang ma-relieved na ako (kumbaga sa LBM, “success” na after).. tae naman o.. kanino ko ba ilalabas ito..

Sa ngayon, ganito na lang muna.. lunok at one time, hingang malalim on the other, tango-tango, iling-iling, nakakapagod honestly, pero keri pa..
*sigh*
Tawagin na lang kita pag di ko na kaya..

gotoxy

“GotoXY is a function or procedure that positions the cursor at (X,Y), X in horizontal, Y in vertical direction relative to the origin of the current window. The origin is located at (1,1), the upper-left corner of the window.” –http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_gotoxy

Goto.. hmm dati, i just can’t remember if this is in Pascal Prog’g.. na when you are writing chronologically, tapos merong step na you have to repeat, you just have to do “Go to ” para shortcut na.. wala lang..

I just suddenly thought of this word “gotoxy” when a long-haven’t-seen-for-a-long-time friend popped a message in YM kaninang hapon..

Ang una nya kaseng tanong eh ano na daw ba ang balita kay first_name last_name na ex nyang close friend ko.. gets mo..?

Honestly, nagulat ako.. kase nga out of nowhere eh biglang ganun.. after more or less 4 years ago na mula nung alam nyo na… hehehe..

Honestly, gusto ko nga sila asarin ulet.. kase when they were still together, i really loved their tandem..

Honestly, told that person this “eh kung kayo na lang ulet?”..

Honestly, natuwa ako sa thought na maging sila ulet.. pero suddenly i felt sad, scared, and i don’t know..

*I’m being gagz once again.. engot, where are you..?*

Di ko actually alam why I felt sad, eh tipong kung may fans club lang ang tandem nila when they were still together, ako na ang president dun.. and every time na makakatext ko kahit na sino sa kanilang dalawa, eh talagang kinukulet ko ang isa na maging sila na nga lang kaya ulet… kahit na ilang beses narin akong nasagot ng ka-chat ko na “malabo yun. naalala ko lang talaga sya kaya ko natanong..”

pero.. kanina.. it felt different.. *charot*…. ewan ko ba..

Suddenly i asked myself and wrote a shout out: “why do there have to be gotoXyz, pwede bang diretso abc na lang..?” ..sa isip ko ang ibig sabihin “baket ba kelangan pang bumalik ng mga ex (kung may gusto mang bumalik)” .. “un past, past na un..”.. “pag nag-ayawan na, ayawan na..” ..”hindi ba pwedeng after ng yesterday, wag na balikan at focus na lang sa today, and the next day, then the day after the next..?” ..

Gets nyo..?

Nung una, pagkabasa ko ng pakikibalita nya.. sa totoo lang parang ayaw ko replyan.. pero di ko alam how I kept on teasing them when I don’t like teasing them anymore..

Ang hirap naman..

A few hours later after I texted first_name last_name tungkol sa pangungumusta sa kanya ng ex nya, eh nakareceive ako ng reply “Bkt daw cya nagtatanong skn?”.. sinagot ko ang tanong, then I went on again to teasing them “eh sabi ko nga sa kanya na kayo na lang kaya ulet..” ..

again.. why am I still teasing them when I don’t like teasing them anymore…

“Ngek. Hehe” –the only reply I got back..

pero teka, baket ba ako nahihirapan dun..? *sigh*

not about..

^not about^

it’s not about how work seems to be so easy for you
it’s about how hard you work for it..
it’s not about how early you come in
but how motivated you are to come early..

it’s not about the amount of mistakes you make
but about the weight of lessons learned
it’s not about how little you know
but it’s how wisely you put it to use..

it ’s never about who you are
but it’s about what you’re made of..
and it’s never about what you have become
but about everything you did to become who you are..

^_^

-jOkel