Change Doesn’t Change.

Things change and so do people. You can’t expect them to stay the way they are forever. We meet different people every now and then. We have always been reminded that change is the only constant thing in the world. Putting it ironically, CHANGE is the only thing in the world that DOESN’T CHANGE.

During my college days, I, together with the rest of my friends would always remind ourselves that no matter where life would lead us after college, we must still be in touch with each other. We promised never to forget the years we spent together, we promised to keep what we always had strong – we promised to keep the friendship alive. But no matter how we always try to fulfill these promises, we would somehow end up breaking them one way or another whether we like it or not.

As someone who really values friendship than any other relationships in the world I could have, I always make sure that being with my newly-found friends wouldn’t make my long-time buddies feel that I have already forgotten about them. I have never failed to keep in touch with them; I have never failed to share with them stories about the life I’m living right now; and I have never failed to make them feel that they are still important. I have never felt tired of making effort just for us to get together, even if it means taking the risk that my invitation would be declined by the same friends I had never experienced rejected by due to wrong timing of plans, etc., ending up feeling sad that we may never find time for our busy schedules to meet.

Earlier, I received a message from a friend. It seemed clear to me that she is beginning to doubt if we will ever get together just as we were before. She fears that our closeness will not be the same as the closeness that we had 3 or 4 years ago. I have always assured her that nothing is going to change between us. I have always promised her that since the day we became friends and luckily I have always been able to keep it until now.

I have always intended to keep my promises. Keeping promises has never been my difficulty because I have never had a hard time keeping them (I won’t make a promise if can’t keep them, in the first place). But this time, I now find it hard. Not because I am not able to keep what I have assured them, but because the promise I made will not depend on me alone anymore. Reason for this is that no matter how I try to keep every thing fine, if the rest involved in this won’t give their effort, this is going to be useless.

I feel frustrated that I won’t be able to bring the group together once again. As time passes, I am beginning to feel tired, but I’m fighting it. Tiredness won’t beat me. I know I can still see me and my friends back together.

Change doesn’t change in this life, yes. But I won’t let Change to beat me, not for AnJELS, not for my friends.

in between friends.. *save it or keep it*

..in between friends..

ha! friends.. buddies.. the ones who can always put your ‘out-of-tune’ self in-tune..! the ones who know just how to help you have fun after a long and hard day’s work, the ones who put rainbows on your stormy days.. The group that can always see the funny side of a very serious matter..  The team you call ‘barkada’..

They say that your friends represent the unBorn world of your personality.. THEY are YOU in some ways.. Each and every one of your friends represents a part that is actually YOU.. With a business-minded friend, you could discover that someone inside you who can actually think of things where money really matters. With a bubbly friend, you can discover that you can actually deliver a joke. The things you thought were not in your personality will suddenly come out of you when you’re with them.. haha! I never thought i could think of something ‘eeewww’ until every time im with them..

those are just a few things friends can make out of you..

but what if, unconsciously and as time passes, the friend who teaches you how to put a smile when all you want to do is pout, is the same friend who’s yet going to teach you how to love.. *whoa!*

RULE # 1 (and i guess is the ONLY rule among this team called FRIENDS): “Do Not Love ME more than you could love anyone in the group” (hindi tayo talo, walang ganunan)

yesterday, thursday.. i was in my cube (in the ofc) when i had a meaningful chat with one of my closest buddies at work.. Suddenly we came to talk about this.. him being not really “in-to” loving a friend in the ‘next-level’ thing.. I told him that same here, it has always been my stand not to fall for someone you have grown sharing naughty minds for quite some time now..

Loving a friend in the ‘next-level’ would not be very encouraging (haha.. im lacking for words!).. for the simplest reason that loving a very close friend would mean risking the friendship you have built together for years through endearing hugs, good laughs, funny stories about each other, sharings of success, facing each other’s shortcomings together, and a lot of things you have shared that has real value than an overtime pay..

…but you cant really do something when someone in your group confesses that he/she is beginning to feel something for the other one.. worse, is that if the one feeling for someone in the group is YOU.. *patay tayo jan*..

It has always been a “no-one’s fault” when it comes to loving.. You just have to know what’s the right thing to do on what you feel.. It’s not just about what it is you’re feeling, it’s your Friendship that is at risk..

End realization..?

Just be careful.. Not all those who love their friends more than just a friend finds a bow and arrow, some or maybe mostly these people only find a double-edged sword that not only stabbed their feelings but killing the friendship as well..

SAVE IT? or KEEP IT?

keep your feelings (you can also let them know if you want but dont expect)..  and decide to save the friendship! .. So you can also save yourself..

save it? or keep it?.. it’s always UPto you..

~keep loving!